i know in my heart that i havn't let go of him yet. i probably never will. he was the love of my life for eight months, and now he's gone and not coming back. i can't explain how i've felt over the last three weeks. it's something that i havn't felt since before i went to the hospital, when we broke up the first time. my mind knows that were not right for each other, that our relationship has failed four times before and trying it again just won't work. but my heart, it just won't let go of the fact that he's the only one for me. i'll take the good with the bad. i just know that he can't, and i'm just going to end up hurting him again and again until we both snap. so goodbye to the only one that i've ever truly loved. i'll miss you.
