OH MY GOD YOU GUYS

I've been so busy lately! Last week I didn't have a single free day! I am pursing more photography opportunities, in which a promotion company here in my town asked me to be apart of their press team to photograph live bands! I also have a possible job lined up with my neighbor at her antique shop! Things are going well, but are also still pretty bad. Outwardly, everything is going great. Inside, though? Don't get me started. I switched doctors so I will have better access to getting my meds worked out, but it's still a long and draining process. Valentines day is also next week, and that always gets me in a weird mood. I hate that holiday. Though I know as soon as I have someone to celebrate it with, it will become my favorite. I hate that society does that do everyone. Last night was also the "Daddy Daughter Dance" that me and my dad have gone to for twelve years. It was fun, and I actually danced (oh my god, right?!) though the argument that ensued after we got home kind of killed the fun. I'll post pictures if and when I can of what we looked like last night! My dress was very pretty. There was also this little six year old girl dancing her ASS off last night. She was entertaining me like no other! Her fully sequined hot pink baseball hat helped add to her already outrageous swag. Hahaha.

I have also been back in contact with someone. You might remember Oklahoma? Well, yes. I'm sure you do. I've been talking (once again) to the guy I was supposed to move with. It's bittersweet. I love talking to him, and he's a wonderfully awesome person, but I know I'm not there and that sort of hits a nerve. It's not something I can fully explain through text on a blog, but just know that I'm trying my best to figure out my feelings towards all this. It's confusing, and complicated, though I am hopeful.

I've been talking to a bunch of other new people too, and it's really refreshing to feel accepted by new people. I've never really felt that before. I hope this continues. I need friends.

I will try my damnedest to update this more often. I know I have been promising that for the last eight months, but I'm really going to attempt this time. You can also follow me on tumblr, my url is dreamingofwildfires.tumblr.com

I love you all! Thanks for sticking by me throughout everything (`:

Until next time....!

Oh... my... GODDDDDD!

Friday, September 9th at 11am my flight leaves from Seattle.
I cannot believe this is actually happening.
HOLY SHIT.
Someone pinch me...
:D!

And so it begins..

As I get ready for my move (just about two weeks!), I have been bombarded with things to do. Packing and going through things, mostly, but also with the whole friends thing. Now, I've never been one to have a bajillion friends who always hang out. Quite the opposite, actually. Even though I have never had a ton of friends, I have a few. I know I've posted about how crappy my friends can be, so I know this isn't new news. Here is what's currently happening. My friends have showed no concern about the fact that I'm moving. They aren't talking to me any more than usual, nor are they trying to hang out. Pretty much, they are giving off the vibe that they don't even care. One of my "friends" actually told me "she didn't feel like driving the hour it takes to get to my house to see me before I leave." That certainly proved what our friendship was worth. I guess I just thought, for some stupid reason, that people would act differently. I was obviously wrong. My dad, as well, has been acting very rude about this whole thing. I understand the fact that he is hurt and upset that I'm leaving, and he also doesn't "trust" this whole situation, but honestly? I don't have much time left to spend with him. I really think that he should be making the best of the time we do have, and stop being so self-centered with the fact that "he doesn't want me to go." I want everyone to know how much I will miss them, but they should be happy for me that I am finally doing something that I want to do.

Big News

I'm not really sure how to start this out, but I figured the sooner I tell everyone, the better. I have made a decision about my life that was pretty hard to make, but I feel that is the right choice to make. A while ago I posted on here that I had big news but couldn't share it. Well, here's the big news, guys! A few days after my birthday, I will be moving to Oklahoma. It's going to be difficult to leave all of my friends and family, but I feel like this is the best decision for me right now. I can't say when I'll be back, because I do not know that. My whole life I have wanted to up and leave, and as absolutely crazy as it sounds, I'm really excited to do exactly that. It's all happening very fast, and honestly that scares me a little bit, but I have faith that is is going to work out. I really cannot wait until I land and can start my new life. I will be sure to update you all about my adventures, and I will be posting a ton of pictures on my facebook, so if any of you want to add me on there people do not hesitate to ask for my info or to send me yours. I would love to add you guys! I hope you all can wish me good luck on my journey, and like I said, I will be updating as much as I can. Stay tuned to read all about my planning for the next three weeks! Oh and if any of you live in Oklahoma, PLEASE let me know! The more friends I can have down there, the better!

Take care guys!