I've decided something just now. Literally, I JUST decided it. It isn't a surprise to you guys that I struggle with self injury, and although I have been clean for over two years (after acting on it for six years), it is still a daily hardship. So in times like these, when it seems like nothing is going right and I just want to give in, I am going to cut. Just not my skin. I've decided that I'm going to cut my hair. Obviously I can't afford to cut my hair every single time I have an urge, but when I get really down and just want to change something, I will change my hair. Thinking back, I've already done this the last two break ups I've gone through, and my hair is starting to grow out just a bit too long. So I'm going to talk to my cousin (who is my hairdresser when we can figure out when we're both free!) because I know that she will cut it exactly the way I want her to! This is a chance at me to find peace with myself. Plus, I'm kind of backwards from everyone else. I love change. Most people are scared of it, but I loveee it. I get bored so easily, especially with hair. So why not make a change to it when the going gets tough? Hair grows back, too, so if I ever don't like it, it won't stay that way forever! I'm already deciding how to cut my hair this time.. Stay tuned! I will post pictures as soon as I do it!
